Blogging really helps to define my thoughts and just put my ideas out there and tell of the revelation I have received, even if it feels like no one is listening but there may be one or two or ten or maybe just a journal for me to re-read when needed. Either way if its helping me, it more than likely will help someone else.
It is such a strong word.
What does it mean?
The Merriam-Webster dictionary states:
1) the reason why something is done or used; the aim or intention of something
2) the feeling of being determined to do or achieve something
3)the aim or goal of a person; what a person is trying to do, become, etc.
2016 is a Year of Purpose for Me
It may just be my beginning of understanding purpose because from now on I want to live purposefully.
Why do I do what I do AND why am I doing it?
Do you ever find yourself just going through the motions or rushing from place to place ALWAYS on the GO never stopping and never thinking about what is actually going on inside of your mind?
Well I realized sometime last year that I was just doing things that needed to be done and going from one thing to the next without stopping to think about what I was actually doing with purpose.
I'm not talking about chores and the mundane things in life but more so I felt a rush of mixed emotions going from place to place including Anger, which I did not like!!
So I decided I would begin to seek this out introspectively with the Holy Spirit as my guide to find out what was going on.
I feel quite vulnerable now expressing these thoughts but the truth is I can't really blog without exposing this part of myself to get to where I am going.
I am very deep and complex and aren't we all, even if we don't think it or admit it!
The first revelation I received was that I wasn't being purposeful about things in my life. One thing that may not seem that huge but it made an impact was that I would find myself going to places out of habit or impulsiveness just because I was scared or bored or reactive. What I mean is I wasn't being purposeful with my time, my money, my relationships, I was more set on pleasing others and making them 'happy" (as if I could!) and it really set me back to loosing a part of who I was because I was not being ME.
Which leads me back to ask these questions: what is the purpose of life? Why am I here? What was I designed for?
WE are designed to be in relationship, relationship with God and people. That was the very reason we came into existence is because God desired fellowship with us. He gives us free will so that it's not a forced one sided relationship either. He wanted us to Know Him and for us to freely let ourselves be known to Him and others so that we could experience the privileged of being heard, seen and loved.
With that being said, fear may creep in and say "Well if I let myself be known then what if they won't listen, what if they don't see me and what if they don't love me?
LOVE....we are made to operate and function in LOVE. Our brains were designed to operate in LOVE and we are finding this out with technology today in neuroscience. (thank you Dr. Caroline Leaf - author of Switch on Your Brain)
See the thing is when people get scared (acting in Fear) they can become critical, judgmental, and box out others in their life. The reason is that when we don't want to be KNOWN some will even go to the lengths of cutting other people down so that the focus is not on themselves. Some of us fear criticism and will lock ourselves up so that we will not be criticized and judged. Or we will become "people pleasers" and try and do everything others want us to just so that we will be liked...yet how will we even know if we are truly loved because we are never ourselves, just a facade to indulge others.
With this I realized that my purpose was to be who God created me to be and it may not be who others want me to be but at some point I need to get over that. I need to get over this fear of being known just on the off chance that people won't like me. The truth is, not everyone is going to like me and that's OK. I need to know that God's Love will always abound toward me and He Loves me and Knows me and then I will attract friends that love me for who I am.
Which leads me to the next question: Who am I?
Well I enjoy running, I'm a mom of two, a wife, a lover of Jesus, a deep thinker, an over-analyzer, a learner, a cook...The list could continue but I want to focus on is My Purpose and that is: I'm a child of God and I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and gave His Only Son for me so that I could BE with Him for ALL eternity. I also am a lover of people because I KNOW how much He loves me and I want to be in relationship with others. Why? Because God has a design for each and everyone of us and He designed us to work together and that is the beautiful part of being who you are, so you can not only feel alive and at peace in your own skin but so that you can also help others in your own special way.
I sat down to write this blog initially because I wanted to talk about the Purpose of Running Plans and how they help you achieve your goals for your race. They were designed by coaches, experts of the sport, to help you prepare to finish the race in the time you desire(to be victorious!). But God had something else in mind here. He wanted me to relay the information that He has a PURPOSE for each one of US and that He would like us to seek Him out, Follow Him and His Design to FIGHT HARD and FINISH THE RACE.
LOL. I'm laughing out of pure joy because I did not think all of this out in any sort of scheme, I just set down and started writing and there you have it. One of my gifts: Encouragement and Here it is on this little blog out there on the web hoping to help someone somewhere. Thank you Lord, please Bless All those that read this and Help them find the Calling of their life that You have for them, In Jesus Name. AMEN
What is your purpose?